Be a lady, Pei

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CURIOUS AND THEN ANGRY

I admit I am curious. I did imply you. You always ignore that. I am just an ordinary person. It's normal for being curious about this. However, I felt shame for your reaction. I won’t force you to do that. I think it doesn’t matter what you perform. At least, I need the trust. You should not doubt about my obvious request. I am not sure if this way will be harmful for our friendship in the future. I just hope I can make preparations for that day. However, you don’t give me the opportunity to prepare for that day. I am angry at your indifference. I am not sure if it is necessary to maintain our friendship...................

Keep it OR throw it away?

My friend told me he broke up with his girlfriend two years ago. He gave himself two years to heal the hurt. After two years, he won’t miss her anymore. I didn’t tell him any opinion about this issue. I think about this question for a while. However, I still cannot figure out the solution about this. Actually, I feel depressed about this. Can time heal?? My mom always said time can heal everything. However, I doubt it. I don’t think time can decrease the damage. People just put it down. For my experience, time won’t heal but time force us to keep going. The frustration doesn’t disappear at all. It still keeps in my mind. Sometime, I cannot help myself recall these frustrations. I still feel depressed about these memories, but I won’t let these factors postpone MY PROGRESS.

Ummm…it’s not a bad thing to keep the sad memory in your mind. Everyone needs memory to enrich its life. I believe you will have other thought for your sad memory in the future. Keep or throw it away?? Up to you.....

A Scary movie

I saw a movie this afternoon. It’s not really a scary move, but I feel scary when I was there. There is one audience in the theater. That’s me. Do you see a movie alone in the theater?? Maybe, you would say it doesn’t matter. However, I don’t know why I just cannot be relaxed for seeing the movie alone. It was so dark in the theater. Some terrible images kept coming out from my brain. (What’s the image?? For example, ghosts also sit next to me.)For couples of times, I just cannot help myself to see other seats. My conclusion is that it would be better to see a movie during the weekend. Don't see a movie within the weekdays. ^^"

(Which movie I saw this afternoon?? This movie named “The Aviator” is a movie of autobiography. BTW, Leonardo’s really a fabulous actor in that movie!!)

He is back.

Mix, my classmate, is back to my life. It should say he is back to my MSN. Today, I just received his message from MSN. He just said that long time no see. Yup….It’s been a long time I didn’t meet him. Since he goes to Taipei for working, I have not seen him for a long time. I met him in the company one year ago. He became my colleague at that time. We started getting together for having dinner, chatting on the internet. It became ambiguous about our relationship. Sometimes, I think he has a crush on me. Of course, it is not a big deal for someone has a crush on me. However, it is a BIG DEAL for this case because this guy is just like a bad guy. Just like a murderer!!

Hahaha~~~Why did I describe this guy as a terrible guy?? That’s because that I know this guy had lots of bad behaviors when he was a teenager. He liked to challenge the teacher and the school rule. Smoking, having sex with other girls, hit others classmates. ....These behaviors were not allowed for a teenager. However, he treated them as ease as a pie. I was a totally good student. How come I can stand this kind of guy. Whatever, it’s an old story. I still cannot sweep these memories from my brain. I accept this guy to be a regular friend, but I am still worried if he will hurt me. OH…NO…I think I must be crazy last year….Sigh……Anyway, I will try to escape from him.

Struggle with GMAT and TOEFL

I just received my TOEFL score this afternoon. Sigh……I still need to take exam again…(Pei is crying now) Whatever, I got great score for the essay section. I am surprised about this result. This is my weakness. Life is always tricky. People cannot predict what will happen next minute....Anyway, I still have to struggle with TOEFL and GMAT. As my colleague in the United States said I should not have any problems to pass them….I hope that I won’t let them down. Of course, I have to pursue myself it won’t be any problems at all. Being cofident is the first step.....Sigh… I still have concern about it. Anyway, I have to do some assignment for GMAT now….....GET AN ADDMISSION FROM A GREAT GRADUATE SCHOOL~~GET AN ADDMISSION FROM A GREAT GRADUATE SCHOOL

Is it o.k. to present this BLOG to my close friends??

When I decide to set up this website, I thought about doing a BLOG which is related to business. One of the reasons is that I did not have enough time to record my thought about my working experience, the business news, and the economic condition. I read many stuff and have a lot of experience about business field in the past. I would not say that my understating is 100 percent accurate, but it would be necessary to write and record them for myself. Yup, it’s just like a NOTEBOOK to record my thought. I s it great, isn’t it?? But……

I have been thinking this question for several days. Certainly, I have to identify my BLOG at first. However, it is also the most difficult part to determine what I should do for this BLOG. I hope my BLOG is not “too personal”. However, I still need “space” to express and share my thought “to the air” sometimes. (Sometime, I think writing a diary thru internet is the best way to decrease the pressure. This way is just like spread my thought to the air. It means your close friend or parents will never know what you do on the internet.) Sometimes, I just need space. When I throw the garbage to the website, it will let me be relax. It's really a good method to release the presure thru writing on the internet. However, I concern if it is o.k. to share my mind with friends.

Sometime I really hope they can read my article. It is earier to let them know my thought. On the other hand, I have some opinion about their behavior. I will write down their stories and my thought about their stories. Sigh~~It is so difficult to choose the best way from these options......Sigh......What can I say?? I am a totally Gemini and AB type person.....It is difficult to determine which one fit for a Gemini and AB blood type person.....

No excuses---About infected milk

It is really ridiculous. How come Taiwanese government didn’t inform people when they know the Milk powder in which are from France brand has infected. This news just break out one month after government receive the significant notices . Our government has the responsibility to notify people that the milk powder can has infected when it break out at that time. It should be rapid. This delay probably will harm infant and small kid who was fed by this infected milk. Do you know what the government said about the delay information? They said that they received the brand name shown on French. They could not recognize the brand at that time. That’s one of the reasons about this mistake. No more excuses, o.k.?? Just face your mistake. I feel disappointed about your performance.

My thought about the anti- Japanese demonstration in China

The tensions between Japan and China become worse. Chinese anger that Japanese government approved a school history textbook that critics say whitewashes its atrocities. Chinese people protect this behavior. They think Japanese should not remove the truth from its school history textbook. That’s absolutely no doubt at all. All people know that Japanese government was one of major countries to cause the WORLD WAR II. Japanese killed many people from the war. They also forced many women to be sex slaves. They did hurt this world a lot. How come they cannot keep this big mistake in their textbooks and teach their students be kind for this world?

Education should not erase the truth. It is not a shame to confess the mistake such as WWII. If you eliminate the truth from history, it would be a shame. Also, it’s not a big deal when you apologize this to other countries because you did hurt them a lot. I watched a TV program about Taiwanese woman who was the sex slave during the WORLD WAR II. She still hates and feels terrible when she talked about that experience of sex slave. I completely understand how much she suffered from that horrible experience. I think Japanese government should apologize about this matter. However, that it’s time for us to forgive. People should learn “How peace is so important for all people around the world.” War cannot solve the problem among countries, but kill poor people.

(Also, I read an interesting news from CNN. It describes that Chinese government also doesn’t show the truth for its textbook. How come Chinese government doesn’t let their people know its rude and ugly history when they killed massive students in 1989? Nowadays, this terrible image is still on my mind. Sigh~~Big omission again.) Anyway, WORLD PEACE!!

Keep this secret this life. Make it come true next life

Keep studying. Keep working hard on everything!! Absolutely-- You!! 你所讀過的書, 看過的電影, 聽過的音樂, 喝過的咖啡, 參加過的exhibition,你去過的城市, 我也都會盡可能的去那兒尋找你曾留下的足跡, 已不再奢求這輩子成為你所愛的人, 但我會默默努力成為下輩子你會愛上的聰明女人。Just pray for me.下輩子我一定能拿到你那張express card ^^

I am not alone!!

I live at a small town in Taiwan. It's in the middle of Taiwan. I live here because my family live here. For me, it is just a temporary condition. Before going back to school, I think I'd better live in my home town to save money. So, I decided to live here. To be honest, I don't like the rural life. No shopping mall. No gym. Even a nice restaurant, it is also difficult to find out. The only advantage is my family here. I don't have to worry about how many days I don't wash my clothes. I don't have to worry whether my bill is not being paid. My parents help me a lot for me. But my close friends are not here. All of them live in the north of Taiwan. (I studied and worked in the north of Taiwan for several years. That's the main cause why my friends are there.) Sometimes, I feel really lonely. Usually, I contact with them thru internet. It is very convenient. However, it is not enough because my life become narrow. I don't meet any new friends. Recently, I am addicted to BLOG. I read a lot of articles. I get started to meet people there. I got respond from them. I think I am not alone anymore.....Thank you,Blog friends.

The Police protect yourselves first, please

It's so terrible. Two guys robbed two police in Taipei county today. One police is dead, and the other one is hospitalized. When I read this news, I was curious why these polices couldnot reflect immediately. You know what?? Their guns couldnot shot right away when they face the robbers. These guns were put in the fixed position. This is not easy for the police to pull out the guns. That's why the police couldnot do anything when they faced the robbers right away.This is a sad news. I won't say this is a sign to show that crime rate increases in Taiwan. However, I think the police should reconsider their supplies and train themselves to face any situations. Hope this like of sorrowful thing will not happen again.

Blessing for Charles and Camilla

Finally, they get married. Many people blame their marriage. I think this is so sweet when I saw their wedding ceremony from TV. It is very difficult to love each other for 30 years, even it is an affair. That's true love. However, TIME fools them in the beginning. That was why they didn’t get together before. Anyway, let’s make the best wish to them!!

I love spicy food

I love spicy food. The red pepper is common in Taiwan. Every restaurant offers the red pepper when they serve the meal. I usually add red pepper when I eat noodle. It becomes very delicious because of the pepper. Several days ago, I am addicted to the green pepper. It tests salty and spicy. It dips in the soy sauce. It is great to eat when you have porridge.( the rice soup) Also, I like Korean food. Spicy seafood!! So delicious.
Recommend this web site.
http://www.lifeinkorea.com/Food/index.cfm
I do love spicy food~~~

Is it a chance to get love??-2

My colleague wanted to introduce a guy to me. After seeing his photos, I didn't reject this chance. I agreed that my colleague could send my photos to his classmate. To be honest, I would not accept this kind of man before. This guy doen't have good looking. Probably, he graduated from a college, but a regular university. However, I didn't reject this request for knowing a man. (I still think if I need to meet the guy. All I can say is I just accept the request for knowing this guy.) I rejected a lot of chance before. That's one of the reason why I still have any boyfriends now. I am not sure if I still have any chance to get the ture love or to be picky anymore. I force myself to accept this oppounitity. I am not sure if I am right. I know I don't like this guy nowadays. I am afraid that I just have a few chances to date man.

My father always says that men don't like the elder women. When women gets older, women will lose chances to get men. When I was still young, I ignored this kind of noise. I think elder men still will fall in love with elder women. However, I don't know why........It seems I don't have the courage to persue myself. How sad it is............