The most curel means

The kite disappeared in the air.
It said it needed freedom.
It left because I tried to seize it.
I was confident that I could be a good player.
However, I am totally wrong.
It felt uncomfortable. It thought I was stubborn to stick on this.
I thought I would get it finally.
However, it didn’t want to be mine.
It left without saying. It left without leaving any message.
I felt depressed because of his disappearance.
It is the most cruel means for me.
I made a significant decision. I decide that I won’t forgive your selfish.
I won’t forgive you anymore. I will try to throw it away. I will try to be more flexible, but I don't know why I fell that it's not my mind………