Mid-life crisis

Some people say 30 is a turning point. For me, it's just around the corner. I am a 27-year-old woman. It's really difficult to imagine I am so......."mature". I am still childish sometime. I still like to wear T shirt and Jean during vocation. I still enjoy going to party, although it's not easy to find friends to go with me now. I still can get the red envelope when the Chinese New year comes. When I go to department store, I still like to stop by the "toy area" to buy SNOOPY.

However, I start getting nervous because I think I have to seize "something". To be honest, I still try to figure out what I really want to be. What do I need?? I just think I should not be NOBODY nowadays. I am still an assistant in the "automotive company" at my home town. (It's a small town in the middle of Taiwan. It's a "tiny town" No shopping mall here. Nothing here) I decide to get a master degree sooner, but still need to struggle with enrollment exam. It's really a struggle life, special I am not young anymore. I am not sure whether AGE will damage the brain cell. (When I was a child, I was not smart at all. Therefore, I cannot figure out the changes) However, it seems a shame to talk about I am nervous if I cannot pass the exam.

I don't have a great job. I don't have the master degree. I am not in a good shape. I don't have a boyfriend. My saving account doesn't have enough money. See~~I really get nothing at this moment. People will tell you that you are not young anymore. (Especially in this small town, People are more conservative. People would say that you SHOULD NOT be a student anymore. You SHOULD work. You SHOULD get married. A lot of “SHOULD" become your GOAL. (You will think it is a goal because all the relatives will murmur every time when they talk to you.)You GOT to follow the rule; otherwise you will be A LOSER. How sad it is. That's the crisis of mid-life woman. Maybe, when they close their mouths the crisis will not happen.